The most painful situation in life is when we are waiting for our dear one without knowing that they are avoiding us. !
After a Marriage, A husband said to his wife, You know, I was a fool when I married you. She replied, Yes dear, I know but I was in love and didnt notice.
There is no word, no phrase for you on whom I so depend. All I can say to you is this, God bless you precious friend.
Keep courage. Whatever you do, do not feel sorry for yourself. You will win in a great age of opportunity.